Last week, Tizzy Wall shared the beginning of her first foray into puppy play. Catch up with the first half of the story and find out what happened next below.
We went into session, where I immediately told him to disrobe and get on his knees.
The roleplay he requested is that I play his stepdaughter, who is punishing him for treating my mother, his second wife, poorly.
I restrained him, then began spanking him for being ill-behaved and disrespectful. I turned his ass rosy pink, then commanded him to neatly lay out all of the toys he had brought with him. I made him beg for me to use them on him, and flogged him properly for not begging sincerely enough. He kept grunting; I wasn’t sure if it was out of frustration, arousal, or outright anger.
He told me that in his personal life, he tends to be dominant, but that occasionally he liked to sort of “reset the clock” by experiencing the other side of power play. Hilariously enough, based on our session, I would never immediately guess him to be a dominant; he was extremely submissive, and went into subspace quicker than I could have anticipated.
This was especially unexpected because of the experiences I had with men who identified as dominant when I was taking on sessions as a pro-switch. Most of them would agree to be a switch because that is the only way they would see me, but they would not act respectful in the context of being submissive. They didn’t get off on the consensual power play as much as they wanted to be able to do whatever they wanted and feel like it was okay. They would push the boundaries, or defiantly top from the bottom, rather than being willing to surrender even the smallest amount of control to the person who was in charge of the scene.
Now, this isn’t everyone, but many of the hardcore kinky folk I know have made it a priority to see all sides of the power play. Perhaps they haven’t explored the other side of the power play to the same extent as where their primary interest lies, but they have given it a shot. This is probably one of the major differences I identify between the gentleman who just want a good looking gal to push them around and the folks who are truly kinky: They are willing to explore every angle of the dynamic in depth. They are willing to try things, even just once, so they know how what they are inflicting feels.
While folks may possess inherent proclivities toward domination or submission, I believe that an integral part of being a good dominant is knowing what it feels like to submit. While I struggle to picture him as a dominant, his ability to communicate and willingness to offer that vulnerability makes me believe that he is probably pretty good at it. It made me like him.
I put a collar and leash on him, and as I led him around the room, I called him a little puppy and told him to bark like a dog. When he asked for water, I had him drink out of a dog bowl. He made a mess, so I punished him appropriately. I told him to bark and wag his little tail, then laughed at him when he did. He kept grunting loudly, even after I told him to stop, so I shoved a rubber ball gag in his mouth.
To heighten the humiliation, one of the other ladies of the dungeon joined us. We alternated between mocking him for being nothing more than a little misbehaving dog and petting his head and scratching his ears like he was a real pup.
It was a surprisingly fun session! One of my greatest joys is dealing with submissives who are really, truly kinky. We get a lot of clients who like a little kink, but mostly they just want to be bossed around by a pretty lady. Deeply kinky folk have the most enthusiasm, the best communication, and show the most respect, and those clients are almost always my favorites.
Before working this job, I had no concept of how nuanced sexuality is. I never realized how possible it was for me to disconnect during an activity that is sexual for another person. I did not realize that there were activities I could enjoy participating in, that would get someone off, while I remained sexually unmoved.
That doesn’t mean the activities aren’t still a total blast to participate in. For example: Offering golden showers does absolutely nothing for me sexually. I have no feelings of arousal from peeing on someone. Somehow, though, giving a golden shower is actually fun, when I’m in the right mood (especially when the experience doesn’t go down like this).
I have spent hours trying to dissect my own brain to discern exactly what is fun about certain activities, even when the sexual gratification from them is one-sided, but I have yet to be capable of articulating a conclusion. It’s just fun. Puppy play is now officially one of those activities too.
But wait, it gets even more perplexing:
Even though I may have a day full of sessions where the activities are fun, but not particularly sexually pleasing, I sometimes still walk out of the dungeon feeling electric with sexual tension.
Maybe it is just the energy of the house? Maybe it is being constantly surrounded by beautiful, naked women? Maybe it is the act of creating a sensual experience for someone else? Maybe it is that developing that sensual experience means tapping into my creativity, which begets a performance that originates from a very sincere part of myself and turns domination into its own art form?
While working as a professional dominatrix has taught me so much about the human psyche, human sexuality, and about myself, but there are still things remain inexplicable. While I am prone to analyzing everything down to the bone, I have accepted that there aren’t always things I am going to comprehend immediately, if ever at all. That does not mean I have to stop enjoying the process, though.
So, puppy, you dear little pet… bark for me.
Tizzy Wall is the Playpen Report’s petite spitfire sex-worker, here to talk about queerdom, sex work, and other kinktastic wonders. Take a peek into her big, lovely brain on both Tumblr and Twitter, or like her on Facebook. Have specific questions, topic requests, or need advice on your kinky sex issues? Email her !